Astrologer Dane Rudhyar would say of today, “the show is over—now comes the hour of decision…”
However, as the moon moves somewhat laterally into Cancer this afternoon, there’s potential for the sentimentality of our mistakes and preferences to quite supremely, still laughably irrationally, take over—there’s potential, though, to attempt a shameless justification of e) all of the above… whatever might make you feel better, for now.
Of course this makes little actual sense…
Nor will this self-serving justification prove beneficial to you.
Be wary of the martyred motherly smothering inclinations that excuse ‘love’ from selfishness, or codependency.
Be wary of feeling as though ultra-sensitivity is some sort of superpower or virtue. It’ll crush you today.
Be wary of any preference toward victimhood… the universe doesn’t exactly care if you’re comfortable—we’re here to experience all of it… and move on, and forward—we’re not supposed to cling or linger or dwell.
Be wary, also, of excuses and emotion-based ‘reasoning’, as these will delight your ego, sure, but only guide you backward, or, with any luck—sideways.
If you’re already living your ideals—what is sideways offering you? Maybe a moment of reflection, or to experience sheer presence…
If you’re still struggling—you’re doing something wrong, and sideways will only keep you there… and, it’s likely your preferences that have perpetuated you struggle. Just a thought.
These new experiences you’re needing to experience—these will require more than your participation, they will demand your flexibility… and your willingness to reorient and realign yourself toward the silouette of this newer version of You.
Rudhyar would suggest, here, that “one argues with oneself, hoping to convince oneself that the old impulses are still legitimate.”
Further, “hesitancy and conflicting motives are still inevitable—the mind is very clever at not facing the consequences which follow from desires or even from restlessness… attempts at rationalization are experienced and should be understood.”
❝Crying is all right in its way while it lasts. But you have to stop sooner or later, and then you still have to decide what to do.❞ ——C.S. Lewis
So, whatever ways of thinking about yourself or the world at large you motivated yourself to throw out from yesterday—you’ll want to talk about it today… but don’t expect anyone to take you too seriously.
Whatever your thoughts or feelings are—these will need to be quite convincing… as astrologer Dane Rudhyar would say, “its inertial resistance to change has to be overcome.”
Maybe try talking less about these new experiences you need to be experiencing and—directly experience them.
❝Unaccustomed to direct experience, we can come to fear it. We don’t want to read a book or see a museum show until we’ve read the reviews so that we know what to think. We lose the confidence to perceive ourselves. We want to know the meaning of an experience before we have it. We become frightened of direct experience, and we will go to elaborate lengths to avoid it.❞ ——Michael Crichton
A gentle reminder: through these new and awakening days of Air we are being challenged to change the ways in which we think about EVERYTHING, particularly in matters involved within the houses these planetary influences are transiting for you…
Especially after yesterday’s sun/Mercury conjunction in Leo, through a degree that resembles a ‘creative and inspired individual open to the spirit that ‘makes everything new’…’
A Gemini moon in its balsamic phase is connecting to the North Node through a degree that astrology Dane Rudhyar associated with the idea that “the mind of man is essentially a trans-piercing power; it goes through the object toward which it is aimed… it seeks to go through and beyond the obstacles on its path, and this usually implies the destruction of the obstacle—at a higher level, the obstacle is the ego.”
In other words—today would be a powerful day to release old or outdated ways of thinking about something, especially if this something you’re thinking about is new, either to you or overall.
❝He judged the instant and let go; he flung himself loose into the stars.❞ ——Annie Dillard