—Synthesis of October 29th-November 3rd

Visualize, if you would—

The deeper into the sea you dive the more difficult it is to move, or for your body to function in even the simplest capacities… breathing becomes an act of will rather than an automatic reflex.

Everything intensifies, every little thing experiences pressure. Even movement slows. Presence is quite confronting.

Not just anyone can attempt to dive deep, or for that matter, reflected more philosophically, spiritually, or really, quite matter-of-factly—not just anyone can attempt to dive deeply into themselves in such a confronting and honest manner.

The ego typically prevents it.

To dive deeply the ego is required to stand under the higher Self, to stand under the soul—to prepare its breath into the deepest unconsciousness… few egos are willing.

Few egos are audaciously fearless. 

The soul is fearless.

Are you up for it?—are you up for really knowing yourself?

The following points/mantras are taken from David R Hawkins MD, PhD from his book “Letting Go” (©2012; Hay House, Inc)…

With your energy manifesting through intention—

A thought is a “thing.” It has energy and form.

The mind with its thoughts and feelings controls the body; therefore, to heal the body, thoughts and feelings need to be changed.

What is held in mind tends to express itself through the body.

The body is not the real self; it is like a puppet controlled by the mind.

Beliefs that are unconscious can manifest as illness, even though there is no memory of the underlying beliefs.

An illness tends to result from suppressed and repressed negative emotions, plus a thought that gives it a specific form (i.e., consciously or unconsciously, one particular illness is chosen rather than another).

Thoughts are caused by suppressed and repressed feelings. When a feeling is let go, thousands or even millions of thoughts that were activated by that feeling disappear.

Although a specific belief can be cancelled and energy to it can be refused, it is generally a waste of time to try to change thinking itself.

We surrender a feeling by allowing it be there without condemning, judging, or resisting it. We simply look at it, observe it, and allow it to be felt without trying to modify it. With the willingness to relinquish a feeling, it will run out in due time.

A strong feeling may recur, which means there is more of it to be recognized and surrendered.

In order to surrender a feeling, sometimes it is necessary to start by relinquishing the feeling that is there about the particular emotion (e.g. guilt that “I shouldn’t have this feeling”).

In order to relinquish a feeling, sometimes it is necessary to acknowledge and let go of the underlying payoff of it (e.g., the “thrill” of anger and the “juice” of sympathy from being a help less victim).

Feelings are not the real self. Whereas feelings are programs that come and go, the real inner Self always stays the same; therefore, it is necessary to stop identifying transient feelings as yourself.

Ignore thoughts. They are merely endless rationalizations of inner feelings.

No matter what is going on in life, keep the steadfast intention to surrender negative feelings as they arise.

Make a decision that freedom is more desirable than having a negative feeling. Choose to surrender negative feelings rather than express them. Surrender resistance to and skepticism about positive feelings. Relinquish negative feelings but share positive ones.

Notice that letting go is accompanied by a subtle, overall lighter feeling within yourself. Relinquishing a desire does not mean that you won’t get what you want. It merely clears the way for it to happen.

Get it by “osmosis.” Put yourself in the aura of those who have what you want.

“Like goes to like.” Associate with people who are using the same or similar motivation and who have the intention to expand their consciousness and to heal.

Be aware that your inner state is known and transmitted. The people around you will intuit what you are feeling and thinking, even if you don’t verbalize it.

Persistence pays off. Some symptoms or illnesses may disappear promptly; others may take months or years if the condition is very chronic.

Let go of resisting the technique. Start the day with it. At the end of the day, take time out to relinquish any negative feelings left over from the day’s activities.

You are only subject to what you hold in mind. You are only subject to a negative thought or belief if you consciously or that it applies to you.❞

Some people believe holding on and hanging in there are signs of great strength. However, there are times when it takes much more strength to know when to let go and then do it.
——Ann Lander

♀□♆cont’d; ♏︎☉□♄/☍♅; ☿∆♃³/›□♇³; ♂›□♄

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Invest in yourself a few moments of your time to read the words of David R Hawkins MD, PhD from his book “Letting Go” (©2012; Hay House, Inc)… I have to imagine that it might be timely and oh, so appropriate at any time—

Blame. We need to learn how to get along… but more importantly—we need to learn how to love ourselves first.

Personal accountability, folks. It will be rewarded.

❝One of the biggest blocks to overcome in getting out of depression and apathy is that of blame. Blame is a whole subject in itself. Looking into it is rewarding. To begin with, there are a lot of payoffs to blame. We get to be innocent; we get to enjoy self-pity; the martyr and the victim; and we get to be the recip ients of sympathy. we get to be the recipients of sympathy.

❝Perhaps the biggest payoff of blame is that we get to be the innocent victim and the other party is the bad one. We see this game played out in the media constantly, such as the endless blame games drama tized in a multitude of controversies, mudslinging, character assassinations, and lawsuits. In addition to the emotional payoff, blame has considerable financial benefits; therefore, it is a tempting package to be the innocent victim, as it is often financially rewarded.

❝Blame is the world’s greatest excuse. It enables us to remain limited and small without feeling guilty. But there is a cost-the loss of our freedom. Also, the role of victim brings with it a self-perception of weakness, vulnerability, and helplessness, which are the major components of apathy and depression.

❝The first step out of blame is to see that we are choosing to blame. Other people who have had similar circumstances have forgiven, forgotten, and handled the same situation in a totally different way. We earlier saw the case of Viktor Frankl, who chose to forgive the Nazi prison guards and to see a hidden gift in his experience at the concentration camps. Because others, such as Frankl, have chosen not to blame, that option is also open to us. We have to be honest and realize that we are blaming because we choose to blame. This is true, no matter how justified the circumstances may appear to be. It is not a matter of right or wrong; it is merely a matter of taking responsibility for our own consciousness. It is a totally different situation to see that we choose to blame rather than to think that we have to blame. In this circumstance, the mind often thinks, “Well, if the other person or event is not to blame, then I must be.”

❝Blaming others or ourselves is simply not necessary.

❝The attraction of blame arises in early childhood as a daily occurrence in the classroom, playground, and at home among siblings. Blame is the central issue in the endless court proceedings and lawsuits that char acterize our society. In truth, blame is just another one of the negative programs that we have allowed our mind to buy because we never stopped to question it.

❝Why must something always be someone’s “fault”?

❝Why must the whole concept of “wrong” be introduced to the situation in the first place?

❝Why must one of us be wrong, bad, or at fault?

❝What seemed like a good idea at the time may not have turned out well. That’s all.

❝Unfortunate events may have just happened. To overcome blame, it is necessary to look at the secret satisfaction and enjoyment we get out of self-pity, resentment, anger, and self-excuses, and to begin to surrender all of these little payoffs. The purpose of this step is to move up from being a victim of our feelings to choosing to have them. If we merely acknowledge and observe them, begin to disassemble them, and surrender the component parts, then we are consciously exercising choice. In this way, we make major move out of the morass of helplessness. 

❝It is helpful in overcoming resistance and taking responsibility for our negative programs and feelings to see that they come from the small aspect of ourselves. It is the very nature of the smallest part of ourselves to think negatively, so there’s an unconscious tendency to agree readily to its limited viewpoint. But that is not the whole of our beingness; for outside and beyond the smaller self is our greater Self. We may not be conscious of our inner greatness. We may not be experiencing it, but it is there. If we let go of our resistance to it, we can begin to experience it. Depression and apathy, therefore, result from the willingness to hang on to the small self and its belief systems, plus the resistance to our Higher Self, which consists of all of the opposites of the negative feelings.

❝It is the nature of the universe that everything in it is represented by its equal and opposite. Thus, the electron’s equal and opposite is the positron. Every force has an equal and opposite counter-force. Yin is compensated for by Yang. There is fear but there is also courage. There is hatred but its opposite is love. There is timidity but there is also bravery. There is stinginess but also generosity. In the human psyche, every feeling has its opposite. The way out of negativity is, therefore, the willingness to acknowledge and let go of negative feelings and, at the same time, the willingness to let go of resisting their positive opposites. 

With humility comes the willingness to stop trying to control or change other people or life situations or events ostensibly ‘for their own good’. To be a committed spiritual seeker, it is necessary to relinquish the desire to be ‘right’ or of imaginary value to society. In fact, nobody’s ego or belief systems are of any value to society at all. The world is neither good nor bad nor defective, nor is it in need of help or modification because its appearance is only a projection of one’s own mind. No such world exists… We change the world not by what we say or do, but as a consequence of what we have become.❞

——David R. Hawkins

*1:05pm PDT; 2:05pm MDT; 3:05pm CDT; 4:05pm EDT on Thursday, October 28 2021

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•●♈︎ FM at 27°26’★

The Greeks believed, and understood, that boundaries were not meant to keep things out, but rather—to contain the presence of sacredness within.

Applied to today’s lunarly landscape: self-authorship versus severely debilitating—even on a psychical level—indecision… but also, perhaps even more importantly—inner trust and  knowing.

The issues of boundaries, then, could be necessary now to protect you—not in terms of keeping you from anything, or in keeping anything from you… but, more significantly and importantly, in an effort to keep your inner knowing safe and untainted.

The Gemini NN/Sagittarius SN (which are finally moving through the last two degrees…) has offered much misinformation, and many ill-equipped ideals toward sovereignty seeking and woo-woo enlightenment ventures—many are struggling with inner knowing, and intuitive trust, proper instinct, as well as personal authority… and the contextual definition of the word ‘synchronicity’… so this nodal influence one exacerbates this vulnerability.

This hasn’t been helping… not to mention the superficiality of it all.

Instead of focusing on, or worrying about, or stressing over the what, the how, the why, or the who of the misinformation or mishap at hand—rather, consider that this lunarly influence is asking you to ponder through the reflection thereof…

In other words: what exactly or essentially is being reflected through __(the what, the how, the why, or the who)__ in an effort for you to learn something integral to your personal growth and courageous ventures?

The boundary, then, becomes an opportunity to go within.

There’s also a mighty detail or development of impatience to contend with… and obscurely disappointment-prone expectations—as astrologer Dane Rudhyar transcribed, “what is required, therefore, is an objective inclusiveness of the whole environment; thus a sense of responsibility for what one’s actions will produce in people who have been made to expect significant results.”

There is potential here—but it comes with a hefty price… and actual depth.

The choice is yours, always…

Are you worth the investment of patience, deeper meaning, and not-knowingness?

Are you boundary-ing your sacredness?—or are you giving your power away?

Are you looking deeply enough to see yourself in all that reflects itself?

The type of person you are is usually reflected in your business. To improve your business, first improve yourself.❞ ——Idowu Koyenikan

*7:55am PDT; 8:55am MDT; 9:55am CDT; 10:55am EDT

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Since mid-June, a natural ease of life has been harnessed, reeled back in—welded back down and unnecessarily complicated… does this feel familiar within your personal reality, too?

It was training. Whether you signed on or up for it, or not—it was boot camp training toward inner strength and resilience.

Think back to this summer, and reconsider all of your circumstances through a new lens—through the perspective that it was even the most subtle of training programs… does this effect or alter your mindset or feelings about it?

And further still… try reconsidering that all this training was actually arranged by your own request—that your inner energies were being reflected back at you.


Attitude truly is everything, yeah?

Now that Jupiter is stationing, and will be henceforth moving forwardly—try adjusting your attitude accordingly, in an effort to truly train your inner energies toward the actual value of the lessons you’ve been learning.

He who conquers himself is the mightiest…


♃ SD at 22°♒︎

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—Synthesis of October 15-20th

An awakening or a quickening, or even a burgeoning, is occurring through these next handful of days, and it’s occurring within you—but also, it’s occurring all around you.

Particularly through an/Other.

These days are precious. And these days are beyond you.

Careful what you focus upon, careful what you’re spending/wasting your time with—I would recommend putting your efforts and energies into your ideal, rather than exhausting yourself with what is, what can never be, or what isn’t… 

Whether you feel you are ‘right’ or ‘wrong’ about anything at all—consider first, and much more importantly, that these feelings are projections… that it really doesn’t matter, unless someone has actually asked you of your thoughts. And even then, rightness and wrongness isn’t the point—but rather, the personal experience which was experienced, and that is all.

Try to remember that everyone around you—and everyone everywhere—is simply doing their best; try to allow them this benefit of the doubt… and granted, their ‘best’ may be experiencing a bad day—send love anyway… send compassion, and forgiveness, patience, and maybe even some energetic boundaries, so that it need not fluster you as much.

Not even leading—but rather, inspiring—through example is all there is to be done at this time.

Symbols speaking or signs sounding—what is needed now is beyond words, in a way, despite so much elemental air abound… or, should words be necessary—choose them wisely.

The lesson through these days will involve opportunities to open while also boundary-ing; these lessons will both teach and inspire a cautious optimism for both self and other; the outcome, of course, depends on how you participate via demonstrative example.

Reality checks continue to startle—be prepared to be quite honest with yourself these days… though, we also have much more opportunity to consider beyond ourselves, willingly—even genuinely. Despite the ugliness that sometimes exists within truths, these days are attempting to hold space for a sort of collateral beauty, toward self and other, and in truth. There is a defining balance to be sought after… or, it may very well simply come to you, should you be open to receive.

The signs need not be so much about direction, but also in validation, that everything within this realm of consciousness is relative, and utterly meaningless—until we inspire meaning to these… these signs, experiences, and truths.

There’s an energy of transmutation, and surrender… and ultimately—personal empowerment, or, depending upon your participation, personal demolition and egoic confrontation.

Always, your choice.

This said, there could be a building of conflicting feelings or viewpoints, this is highly likely… remember to honestly put effort into understanding the other side, be it personally or collectively, or otherwise—because you should wish this effort from your own oppositions. There is no right or wrong, only relative understanding and subjective experience.

You know, that ancient golden rule…

Perhaps this awakening that is occurring within you and all around you is simply a new understanding, manifesting, toward the universal law that inspires one to look outward with trust and openness—trust and openness is then understood, received, and offered in return.

This is quite an empowering manifestation, indeed.

None of us knows what might happen even the next minute, yet still we go forward. Because we trust. Because we have Faith.

——Paulo Coelho

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☿Rx/D☍⚷@11°; ♎︎☉/♂»□♇@25°; gibbous☽♒︎☌♃,♓︎☌♆,♈︎☌⚷

•●♑︎ 1stQ☽ at 20°01′ on Tuesday★

What, may I ask, are you doing with your un-ease?

What confrontations have introduced the raw and un-ignorable need for repair?

These recent and current energies we’re navigating, as astrologer Dane Rudhyar transcribed, “bring to us vividly the realization that whatever [you] build in order to be able to venture away from solidly individualized and conscious bases of operation is likely to be damaged by as yet unfamiliar cosmic forces.”

I wouldn’t be surprised if some sort of cosmic sign or spiritual symbolism hasn’t been occurring to you through this last week… though, you may simply not want to take to heart its meanings—ahh, the interplays of choosey ignorance.

Is your spirituality established through convenience?

It’s one thing to obliterate or eradicate all the historical events and reminders that trigger unwanted emotions or fears, although eliminating the reminder serves us not… it’s quite another, when it comes to dealing with oneself, ultimately—what shall be removed in this circumstance?

Is your self-worth and personal evolutionary progress convenient?

What behaviors, attitudes, and mindsets from within need, first, to be dealt with if you are to move forward?

As Jung would recommend: anything that so triggers you beyond yourself is actually occurring within yourself… which brings us back to (trans)personal accountability—oh so conveniently, as Pluto and Saturn station direct through this week, and Mercury and Jupiter will station direct next week, inspiring further hints and nudges. Sure, maybe there’s strength in numbers for all of these obscure movements occurring… but these groups of collaborative complaint are only as strong as their weakest link, essentially—all revolutionary work in the name of progress will forever need to be strategized and conquered from within first.

You’ve been given the hunch, the sign, the hint—whether it was the one you wanted or not… so take your triggers, your woes, and your collective complaints—take a long hard look within, at yourself, “in all ways to Tuesday… and fix it,” as my dad used to say, regardless of what day it was, “damnit man.”

The cosmos has your back, as well as all your ideals, it does—but you’ve got to do the real work from within yourself first: it’s your transpersonal responsibility…

I know, the actualizing and adulting required of Saturn in Aquarius is exhausting—but all your demands, rational or not, require the critical course-corrections… and these begin with you—and it doesn’t matter a bit how much of the outer or microscopic world you try to destroy or eradicate along the way.

You’ve still got the work to do. Saturn will wait.

So what, may I ask, are you planning to do about your un-ease/dis-ease?

If you have bad luck at dawn, you had bad luck. If you keep having bad luck all day, you are the bad luck.❞

——Amit Kalantri

*1stQ October 12 at 8:24pm PDT; 9:24pm MDT; 10:24pm CDT; 11:24pm EDT

•●♎︎ NM at 13°25′

Typically Libran new moons are quite lovely, and your average astrological cookbook definition would likely concur, ever so conveniently and agreeably…

Not this one.

There will be an obvious challenge, quite directly and very possibly personally, to all things lovely, and toward all things Venusian, indeed… toward all things so blindly and thoughtlessly agreeable.

You might feel an un-ease, actually—or dis-ease. A disorientation.

If I were you I would question it, especially if questioning it would go against your ‘natural’ grain in any way.

However, and unfortunately, simply privately questioning anything will likely go much further… and be much louder than the sounds of your own personal conscience—these energies are likely potential to stir protests and riots of unrest, at the very most, collectively or even on a personal level between yourself and an/Other… it seems that everyone is either clinging to a sense of false relevancy or seeking out meaning in an overall that isn’t even their own personal experience—it’s as though much of society, if one were to believe what they’re being told, is putting tomato into a fruit salad.

Further, I presume the almighty righteous virtue signaling will wave its martyred flag in its finest silks, and for its most unbecoming reasonings… as it has since spring of 2020—and look where it’s gotten us: incredibly uneasy… (the ultimate result of giving everyone a trophy for simply showing up for the last twenty years.)

Yet, the opportunity awaits those who can think and thrive for themselves—as we continue to reward the broken and triggered—and for those who actively find balance in the imbalances.

Where is the un-ease or dis-ease in your reality?

Something needs to change… but what?—it’s gotta begin with you, though… this new moon is all about you you you.

Do you prefer to be told what to do?

Do you prefer to make your own decisions?

Does it make you uncomfortable to not have control?

Does it create un-ease to consider that everything you thought was secure is… no longer so secure, in any stretch of the imagination you may lie to yourself through?

Knowledge is knowing that a tomato is a fruit. Wisdom is not putting it in a fruit salad.❞
——Miles Kingston

*4:05am PDT; 5:05am MDT; 6:05am CDT; 7:05am EDT

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The first week of October begins with a wealth of potential —however painfully available… it is an eye-opener week, if you will; a week to ask yourself: what has the universe been asking me to release?

Further, what plans have you been clinging to that are simply no longer relevant, these plans no longer fit, they no longer feel true?

Not unlike this time of year —what memories have you been romanticizing?—memories that may need to be let go for their cold and crippling inaccuracy…

The photo I chose is a drone’s perspective, from above, of an aircraft boneyard in southern California, where many models of aircraft that have been rendered irrelevant, for whatever reason, are stored, to be stripped for parts for models that remain relevant and vital… kept in the dry and unforgiving desert, these parts manage to resist rust and decay, and are thereby still valuable.

There is a wealth of potential to be found and honored in this first week of October, should you be brutally honest with yourself —should you wish to take your power back into your own hands and prepare to move forward… should you choose to raise your frequency and tune into the vitality amidst all the death and dying, victimhood and fragility… amidst all of the varying irrelevancy.

In what ways can you take responsibility for your own chosen outcomes?—for your own ideal?

What expectations do you need to release?

Is there a blind spot you’ve been avoiding?

What are you committed to changing?

When, and in what ways, do you feel most alive?

The inner fire is the most important thing mankind possesses.❞
——Edith Södergran

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